As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need

In my life you're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh

Chorus

I can't imagine me without you

Firstly,28th came, happy seven years two months to you my dear benita(=.Every 28th of the month, it passes very quickly.Know why?Because,happy moments always pass very quickly.Hehehe,sweet talk! Btw , drink more water and takecare of your throat okay? Love ya.

Bee is sick just now.Takecare also okay? Drink lots of water, i know you drink alot already.But still,drink more please.Although you are feeling better now.After seeing this,you will sure say this , LORSOOOOOO. HOR?! well,i know you toooo well! HAHA

its hurts to see your loves one is sick while you cant do anything and just to ask them to drink more water and takecare of themself.What more can i do?=\ TAKECARE HOR !

Alrighty, blog soon.

Tags reply,

Ah be: u ask me to so i did
To,Ah be: Well , you ask me to give i did too! fairfair.(x

benita'sisterlove: happy 7 years 2 months SISTERLOVE =)
To,benita'sisterlove: Happy 7 years 2 months too <3

CallMeBee: someone got bf liao wor... woooo~ hahaha!
To,CallMeBee: haha, yaya. woooooooohoooo!

Merry Christmas everyone!

Met Natasha in the afternoon,she accompany me to buy christmas pressie for bee and i accompany her to do diamond extension.Thinking of doing it,but in the end never.Something happen to her and her clique when we are on the way back in the mrt.Chill okay darling?(: Everything will be alright soon:D

Went to bee's place after that and off we go to town,squeezed in between the crowd,and not forgeting the spray.Mad people(s).Oh, this is the first time i celebrate christmas with my Darling(L) and I felt soooooooooo,sweet.Even though is with alot people instead of two of us,i still enjoy myself yesterday night.Hope to spend the next christmas with you too! Or even every christmas.I love you very much<3

Suddenly,i miss my lovely people(s) so much.esp Jovie and others.Never get to meet them during holidays and holidays going over soon.Hopefully,count down will be meeting them.Miss you guys so much man.As i have many things needa catch up next year when school reopen too.Might not be spending much time with my lovely people(s) alr.Sadded.totally have no idea how to cope too.super stress.

Sorry never get to upload photos from my phone.Will get to upload it when my com is okay:) Well i guess i have to stop as i think i had try my best to type as much as i could.But still,very less huh!Alrighty,i gotta accompany bee as he says he is fucking bored while waiting for me to post.Goodnights:)

P.S.Thanks for those who text and msn for the wishes.Although i never reply all,but very appreciate it and merry christmas too!<33

Tags reply,

LORAINE.: xingan, i just notice something alike. your bf is NG. my bf is also NG. melvin NG worrr!:D
LORAINE.: Merry Christmas! whereee you! hehe
To,LORAINE.:Merry christmas too!<3 hehehehehe,know why? because we are Xingan.Everything also like same.

Sexae: I miss you. Haha. Sexae th best(:
To,Sexae: i miss you too sexae:( Will get to see you when school reopen!(:

benita'sisterlove: haha,I didn't say you die lah, dont anyhow say alright. Meet up sooonnn~~!!!!! =)
To,benita'sisterlove: joking(: yesyes.of course! i miss you like hell lots<3

Conversation between me and you.<3:-

♥ MEIEN says:
ohmy rainrain
chuanyu says:
ya..
chuanyu says:
know why
chuanyu says:
heaven touched by my love for u

nice one.muacks.
I love you boy,
one more day to christmas!<3
Cant wait to see my lovely ones!

tag reply,

benita'sisterlove: I miss my SISTERLOVE~~~~ where has she gone to? arrrgghhhhh...
To,benita'sisterlove: I miss you too sister<3 i haven die yet.chill!

JOEY: DUMB DUMB!
To,JOEY: HI DUMBDUMB!<3

Damn it

overdue photos.

i cant upload my photos in my phone,damn it.will upload when my com is okay.
Went outing with sister on sat,movie with her.watched twilight.the show damn sweet i swear.Hope bee will be as sweet as the main lead huh!HAHA.just joking bee:)i still love you even you are a shity now,dont worry.HEHE.
Yesterday was the most beautiful night ever, and i hope you can make everyday to be beautiful too :)
Suppose to meet Loraine today,but i was too tired.Its okay darling,you will see my face tomorrow.Dont worry.Gotta bath,to meet my shity later!<3>Tags reply,

LORAINE.: LOVE YOU XINGAN!
To,LORAINE.: HEHE LOVE YOU TOO<3>

Bee,finally this day had came.
you are the one who always be there for me.
you are the one who talks to me when i am bored.
you are the one who takecare of me when im hurt badly.
you are the one who make me laugh when i dont have the mood.
you are the one who tell me what to do and give me your listening ears whenever i am upset.
And most importanly,you are the one who makes me fall in love with.
19december2008.
Yes,he is the one,Ng ChuanYu.<3
P.S. and bee,this song is for you.you should know why i post this song huh!shh,secret.



finally i have the time to settled down and blog.and yes.Many things happened.Yesterday was a nightmare i swear,besides yesterday night.Had a war with daddy.And my poor little com spoil just because of him.Currently using the old lappie now.And its damn lag okay.Lets not talk about sad stuffs.Im going to start anew and live happily:) of course,with this shity of mine too.haha.Alrighty,Went to chompchomp with loraine and friends yesterday night.Had dinner,and we had bloated tummy after eating.DAMN fucking full.Pictures later when she send me all of it.

tags reply:

♥ Freda: Hellos Meien jiejie ! long time no see && chat luhs (: how're you ? takecares yeah . Love .
To,♥ Freda: HI Freda!(: im fine,you? takecare too huh!<3

CallMeBee: Glad that you are feeling better. haven't got the time to irritated you. hahaha!
To,CallMeBee: Yesyes, I am feeling beter.thanks anyway:)

Gary: orhhhh smoke. lol
To,Gary: Nope,never:)

LORAINE.: hahah. last pressie!:D
To,LORAINE.:yesyes.LAST!:)

Confused.

Just came back from Loraine's place,help her do the pressie for her ex.Although is not worth it,But take it as a last pressie for him bah.right xingan?hehe.Afternoon went to meet Natasha,had a sweet time with her today.Meet up soon babe!<3

A part of her pressie.sweet ya.How i wish you will did this for me.dream on.

Roughly tell you what i did today.Anyway,thanks everyone for your concern.i will be alright one day.love you guys<3

• Woke up
• Recieve both j's text.
• Both say its okay,but i still feel very guilty:(
• Prepared and meet sisterlove
• Help her with her stuffs
• Dinner
• headed home

Tags reply yyyyyyyyy:-

shiying: cheer up!
To,shiying: Thanks:')

LORAINE.: chill k, xingan!:D
To,LORAINE.: Thanks xingan baobeiii<33

dee: meien dont be sad!
To,dee: ill try=\ thanks anway babe.

CallMeBee: cheer up k? we are never perfect people. we have our flaws as well. smile k?
To,CallMeBee: Thanks.i will keep these words into my heart ya.:)

Gary: cheer up girl
To,Gary: ill try=\ thank youuuuuuuuuu.

Feel so guilty right now:(

You guys had seen the last few post yeas?Yes,that time i was feeling rather down.I cried,i scream,i even forget about my Sisters birthday.AHHH.Why am i so stupid?!?!?! How can i forget about their bigbig days?! I admit that i am a very forgetful person,but i diedie also wont forget my lovelys birthday.BUT,this bloody incident make me forget these important dates.Seriously,fuck you.You made me feel like i am not the old meien anymore.My laughter has become tears.And this is not i want it.I really feel like slaping myself and just bang the wall.Stupid meien!Blooody hellllll.Feel like crying,but my tears are already dried:( sighs.:'( :'( :'(

Tags reply:-

benita'sisterlove: Hello~!!! I am just beside you~ LAME! ==' HAHA. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALRIGHT =)
To,benita'sisterlove: You are always lame my dear.=p I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH TOOx33

LORAINE.: love xingan!<3
To,LORAINE.: Love xingan too x33

natasha: ok. see you fri :)
To,natasha: See ya too(x

Gary: lalala
Gary: still no update?
To,Gary: Update already.=\

CallMeBee: Wo Lai Ye! LOL! Okie, i know i'm lame. -.-
To,CallMeBee: I know i know(x hehes.

Reply to Tagggs-:
benita'sisterlove: sisterlove, no matter what happens, I will always by your side, supporting you, and not let you get hurt. cheer up dear =)
benita'sisterlove: I LOVE MY SISTERLOVE LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!
To,benita'sisterlove: Yesyes,Thanks sister(':Love ya too lil sisterlove!<3

natasha: dye hair ah you? haha. i dyed my hair black just only ):
To,natasha: Yaya,But not obvious=\ Friday fastfast come!

Gary: cheerup girl:D
Gary: naughty cum lazy girl
Gary: lazy duckie
Gary: update update
To,Gary: Nopes,update alr(=

Sexae: Sexae so chio worhh. Haha.
To,sexae: Nopes,where got.Wahhhh.i miss you laa sexae!

♥AHGAL .MEL: Jealous siol.. Your hair so long. My hair machiam wont grow already ):
To,♥AHGAL .MEL: Will grow de dear(: Now also nice mah:D Mine not say very long also.=\

LORAINE.: must you expose meee. =.=
LORAINE.: walao
To,LORAINE.: Heheahahaha!

My mind is totally blank now,sighs.Just go through what i did this few days.PlayPlayPlay,EatEatEat,SleepSleeepSleep!
Tadaaa.Goodnights Babes<3

i am seriously sososo shag.But luckily got Sister and Xingan and some of them who knows what happen.I love you all very much!Please dont leave me,i will breakdown anytime.<33>

Edited/

opps,pardon my FAT legs T.T

As you can see im feeeling better right now yea.

hope i can stay this everyday ya.

Tags reply;/

Anonymous.: wo hen xiang ni ):
Passerby.: ni hen chio wo
LORAINE.: WAH XINGAN! alot of admirer hor
LORAINE.: HI XINGAN! <33333>To,LORAINE.: IS YOU LOR,MAKE PPL WUHUI ONLY.HAHA

Gary: takecare girl
Gary: adorable:D
To,Gary:Yes yes i will!

ZhaoXing: HELLO>< To,ZhaoXing: Heylo:)

dianah: sialah meien so hot!
dianah: dye hair uh? post uh i wanna see!
To,dianah:Yes i post alr.got see? No?not hot laa.(=

hidayat: o ****, my dick is steaming-.-
To,hidayat: Who are you? Please dont use my friend name when you are not my friend.

♥AHGAL .MEL: Meimei ! Haa ;D Jie is here to tag(:<3s
To,♥AHGAL .MEL:JieJie! Thankyou:D

benita'sisterlove: STILL HAVEN'T UPDATE!!!! SO SLOWWW~!!!!! FASTER UPDATE~~~
benita'sisterlove: haha, I also wanna go out with you~~~!!!!!! miss you lots! loves <3
To,benita'sisterlove: Update alr:)Love
ya!<3

fatin: i like the jacket [: where you buy?
To,fatin:i bought at Bugis dear(:

I will overcome it.Yes,i will:'(

Thanks sister for accompany me for the whole day.
I will breakdown if i am staying at home alone.Thankyou love<33and thanks those who concern and cheering me up.Thank lovelys<3

Do you want to see my dyed hair?Alright,here it is.And took some with sister and her cousin(: Pardon my fugly face=\

Currently at sister's.Stayed overnight,dont feel like staying at home.

Not thinking of the past unhappiness.

It has no say in coming.

Wednesday:

Bake cookies at Loraine's.Hmm not really yummy though.Still need improvement.After that,we walked to green and went up to the carpark to slack while waiting for Loraine's boy to come.Dinner and headed home.

Thursday:
Met up with Sister in the evening,finally see her!:D Give her a bigbig hug inside the cab.Reached Downtown,met up with Wilson and his friend.Kbox-ed,Singsing playplay.Was fun though.Whenever i sing those sad song will felt kinda emo and those negative thoughts will pop out,but this time,different! heh,happy laas.Sister and i went off first and headed home.Kbox again!<3

Friday:
Its 28th,Happy Seven years One month to me and my beloved sister<3
Gave her a letter,heh.Sorry for not giving any gift,lets put our happy memories as a gift alright?love ya!Oh and yes.I finally make up my mind and i dyed my hair=\ i know is kinda late alr.But nevermind(: And thanks sister!

One word to describe how am i feeling now.Shag.

The pictures tells you what we were doing huh.Type less here.
Had lots fun with her.Love her very much!

Yes,my sister is back man.Going out with her probably on thursday hor?heh!<3cant wait to see her manszxsz,and she took this in HK,

i want.

Reply tags :-


fatin: i agree, the guy in the video is hawt [: woo~!
fatin: is that a pink jacket? if it is, nice nice [: i also like the pushcart pictures, the one you and me, the one my hair cover sch badge [: heh [:
fatin: meien, im gonna miss you next year. by the way, i take the pushcart pictures from your blog kay? heh [:
To,fatin:HI fatin.yes i miss you too:( yes,it is a jacket.like the picture too yea!And yes he is damn hawt.love ya!<3

benita'sisterlove: I LOVE MY MEIMEI MOST~! I MISS YOU TOOOOOOOO~~~~ =)
To,benita'sisterlove:Heylooooooo,how you manage to tag man!?I MISS YOU TOO !<3

Kelly: Mother! Nice blog, haha. T'kcare alright? Daughter ♥ Mother!
Kelly: Daughter love you more! ^^v T'kcare hor, drink more water.
Kelly: Mother! Get well soon okay! I don't like a sick mother, haha
To,Kelly:Yes daughter,i will.You too alrights?(=

WINSTON (:: Yang meien is being love by MEMEME!!! (:
To,WINSTON (:: YESYES brother:)

Gary: takecare gir
Gary: stupid flu...hahas
Gary: lalalala....im bored
To,Gary:Yes!Stupid fluuuuuuu.=\

junior: XMM! =)
To,junior:Hi(:

LORAINE.: love you so much! one & only!<3 color="#ff0000">To,LORAINE.:Love ya too<3

Stay tune for tmr post.Love.

Flu.Bad fluuuuuuuuuuuu.
I doesnt want to have a old duck voice!Please go away sooooooon.
Ah cheeeee!:(

Edited/ 17:12pm

heh,feel much better.Nothing to blog.BORED.Entertain me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.=\

OH!i almost forget.BELOVED Brother show me see this.

And i seriously think he is hawt.yayys(:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEf1Xf2IyuA
Xingan did this for our one year one month anni:')
Never regret to have you by my side.And i am going to tell you,you cannot leave me untill the world ends okay!
And you will get yours soooon my dear!love you!<3

p.s. I know i look very unglam=\ But no choice.Xingan loves it!=x HAHA.

17th and 18th Pushcart challenge had came.Ohyea,a tough job.Needa stand 12hours for the first day and keep repeating the same old words. Example like; Come and take a look; May i help you?;This is a 3d doll,you can slightly touch the nose as you can feel the nose is popping out.;the small one is for $14 and the bigger one is for $20.; oh and the most imptly THANKYOU. I repeat these words for at least 200times can!No,think more than that.Omg,fucking tired!But is worth it yea?Because..

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Heh,2nd runner up.Not bad huh?But i think can did better:(
Nvm.We guys had fun can already yea?<3 align="left">Sister Went to HongKong:( and she is going there for 2weeks! I'm so going to miss her man.Fast fast come back sister:( you are missed!<3

Reply tags :-

Angeline: HI MY CUTE LIL MONSTER!! AHAHAHA. TAG NI OH~ Loveyou! Conference on phone with loraine and you sooon~ <3 color="#ff0000">To,Angeline: Hihi:D Yes,Conference sooon,love ya too.

benita'sisterlove: yeahyeah, will go out der =) I love you toooooooo~~~~!!! haha x)benita'sisterlove: HELLO!!! I AM HERE TO TAGGGGGGG~~~!!!!!! MUST MISS ME WHEN I AM IN HK LEH~~~ I LOVE MY SISTERLOVE
To,benita'sisterlove: Ohman,i missing you nownowNOW!:( faster come back!<3

Freda ♥ : Re-link me (:
To,Freda : kkx.Soon(x

Gary: sell YOU
Gary: sell to the circus
Gary: when wan go rounding? hahas
Gary: lalalala
To,Gary: Sell you this bear hai cha bu duo! and you got car le ah?

LORAINE.: *world
LORAINE.: aww aww awww. so ****ing sweet. thank you very much! love you till the end of the word.
LORAINE.: nb! my unglam!
To,LORAINE: Yes.i love you too babe!<3

Natasha: Hello Meien , thanks for today. I had fun while watching the coffin movie with you:D -Laughs
To,Natasha: Hello natasha(; had fun with ya too. GHOST! HAHA.

bestie=]: i am a important lovely!! yea hahax.. i did le..
To,bestie=]:haha!yaya(:

Thanks you guys for helping<3
Happy Fifteen Birthday to my daddy!Grow one year older already.yayys.My duckie finally had caught into my hand.Happy:D:D MUAHAHA.

meien only got one bunny tooth:D HAHA

Basically,Nothing special happen nowadays,Suppose to meet up with Ed and co today to plan things.In the end i got something on so didnt meet.sorry huh!Dont angry huh!.=\

Recently Went to meet Banana head.Always bully me.tsk.But still,Thanks for cheering me up,opening a listening ear for me,And tell me what to do all.You always say "Everything i said,you sure will forget de"But serious,i got Put your words into my heart.I'm just trying to forget everything at bit by bit.So dont worry okay?(: Thank you very much anyway.heh.

12thnov,Xingan's 11th Monthsary with her boy.Happy 11th monthsary okay!Last longlonglong hor!Have fun with you also,More outings please!<3

Opps,i almost forgot!Just now webcam with xingan.She is damn sweet i swear!haha,xingan,your favourite line.

SO CUTE HUH! HAHAHAHA.